The Bigger the Better

Although the above crave episode chart reflects averages of quitter data from a specific
study of a unique population, it shows two factors common to every recovery. It
evidences the fact that the number of daily crave episodes quickly peaks. It also shows
that the number then begins to gradually decline. I’d like to spend a moment focusing
upon natural consequences associated with the decline.
Unless following the bum advice portion of “Clearing the Air” and hiding in a closet in
order to avoid temptation, locked up in prison, or laid up in a hospital room, we have
no choice but to meet and extinguish the bulk of our subconscious feeding cues within
the first week. The number and frequency of early challenges kept us on our toes and
prepared to swing into action and confront challenge on a moment’s notice.
As the crave episode chart a few pages back shows, by the 10th day the average exuser
was experiencing just 1.4 crave episodes per day. That translates to less than five
minutes of significant challenge. But what about the days that follow? What would be
the natural and expected consequences of beginning to go entire days without once
encountering an un-reconditioned crave trigger? What will happen to anticipation, your
preparedness, your defenses and battle plans once you experience a day or two without
serious challenge?
For purposes of discussion only, let’s pretend that during recovery days 14, 15 and 16
that although you remained occupied in dealing with what at times seemed like a
steady stream of conscious thoughts about “wanting” to use nicotine, that you did not
encounter any un-extinguished feeding cues. Although unlikely you’d have noticed,
wouldn't it be normal to begin to relax a bit and slowly lower your defenses and guard?
And then it happens. Assume that on day 17 you encounter a subconscious crave
triggering cue that wasn’t part of normal daily life. It catches you totally unprepared,
off-guard and surprised. You scramble to muster your defenses but it’s as if you can’t
find them, that they too are being swallowed by a fast moving tsunami of rising
anxieties. You feel as if you’ve been sucker-punched hard by the most intense crave
ever. It feels endless. Your conscious thinking mind tells you that things are getting
worse, not better. The thought of throwing in the towel and giving-up suddenly begins
sloshing through a horrified mind.